EMOing again

I want to shout out loud.
Somewhere at the beach.
To release stress and also to remind myself,
the past had already past.

No matter how strong is my will to stand on my own,
sometimes, I'm weak.
No matter how happy I smile in the middle of the crowd,
there is still tears hidden somewhere beneath my eyeballs.

I think if move in big pace,
I can forget about certain things.
When I walk in big pace,
I pace through the sad things,
don't want to step on any of it.

I tend to forget about sadness
or am I pretending
or cheating myself?
I don't know

I know its there, amidst the paces.
I pace through it,
look up with pride,
and cover it with a fake smile of mine.

Now only I realize that I actually missed a lot of things.
Opportunity, happiness, dream and hope
which I might get only once in my lifetime.
I step through all those.

When I slow down my speed,
I look around...
Its blank with no one around.
I missed them which I accidentally pace through.
Sorry.
I don't understand.
One day I will understand.
And I hope you will understand as well.