A tiny little improvement

When things doesn't happen the way I wanted it to be,
all negatives feeling comes in.

Disappointed, anger, and sad.

My way to handle this, I decided to go home and take a nap in the afternoon because I really don't want to vent my anger to anyone. Besides, after few months of insufficient sleep hours, and hectic lifestyle, I need to cool down my engines....XD
Luckily managed to wake up like nothing happened...=)



Even though I wish my efforts to be appreciated but I'm kinda relieved to realize that result is not that important after all. Since young, people told me on how results can make difference in my future life, but non can assure me how long in the future I will actually exist. So why don't live my life the fullest for today and for the very moment. Of course, this doesn't mean that we can waste our time with useless stuff but spending time more meaningfully, every single seconds of it.

In the end, when I get my actual result, it doesn't feels that bad after all. Its not the front row result and neither there's any improvement from the previous semester but when you already experienced the worst, a slight better is already an improvement and this gives a little sense of satisfaction that envelopes a big joy.

Somehow, I'm quite surprised how I managed to suppress my own feelings, today. Before this, I'm marked as the most emotional person, and worst of all, with my bad tempered and uncensored mouth. I remembered pin pointing my primary school teacher in front of class for wrong exam marking, shouting at my secondary school teacher for her insults, slap people and not to mention countless times of break down crying case... Sorry for my ignorance back then.. I wouldn't regret it as that is the growing process that I had gone through. But all this teaches me how to be a better person. Thanks, all of you are great gurus to my life.

There are lots of things happening that might spoil our mood. But it is actually our own choice, whether we want our day to be more enjoyable.. or filled with anger and disappointment..=)

I had tried my best, so no regrets.. They decide my grades, but I settle on my own happiness.